Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I'm at my parents' house in the Midwest right now. It's been a great trip so far. Ben and my parents get along great. Yesterday we went out on the lake in my parents' pontoon boat, and both Ben and I got to steer. Tonight my parents will be having several friends over for dinner. Ben will no doubt be introduced as my "friend," which is fine.
I'm feeling a lot better about our relationship then when I last wrote. I had a little talk with Ben the other night before we left about the affection thing and my concerns. He said that he is generally rather low on the affection scale, that it has nothing to do with me in particular. At the same time, lately he seems to have been a bit more affectionate than usual, which I greatly appreciate. It's a matter of give and take.
I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving with good food and good company. I am so thankful for my friends and family, and for my relationship with Ben. I am also thankful for this blog, and for all of my readers and your advice. Thank you all so much! I have grown so much as a person over this last year, and I look forward to the journey ahead!
I'm still around. Just been really busy lately. I'm gearing up for my trip to the Midwest next week with Ben. We'll be flying out Tuesday and coming back Saturday. It will be the most time I've spent with him in the six months that we've been together, so I'm excited about that. Yep, six months! We celebrated earlier this month by going back to the place where we first met in Long Beach. We didn't go to the same bar though. Instead we ate dinner at a really good Mediterranean Place (one of my favorite types of food). We also walked around the waterfront for a while. It was beautiful, and romantic.
Things haven't been totally 100% perfect (are they ever?) Some of the initial magic has worn off as we've gotten to know each other more and more. Not to say we like each other less, I think we're just moving out of that initial "honey moon phase" after you first start a relationship. The imbalance in how we show affection is still a recurring issue, with me often feeling like he is not affectionate enough. I've noticed that he doesn't compliment me as much as he used to, even though I still try to compliment him on a regular basis. On the bright side, I still see Ben every weekend and greatly enjoy my time with him. He's getting more and more attractive since he's really gotten into working out since we started dating. We talk multiple times every day and it still makes me happy to look down at my buzzing phone and see his smiling face.
Ben is going through quite a lot of stress lately as he struggles to make ends meet with his part-time job while looking for full-time work. That may explain why he sometimes seems a bit standoffish. I have my own stresses to deal with as well, as I'm playing the waiting game while schools review my application materials.
The other day I heard from my best-gay-friend, aka YouTube Guy. He's thinking of proposing to his boyfriend! I'm not sure it's wise to move that fast (they've only been together for 8 months), but I'm happy that he seems to have gotten through his period of confusion.
In honor of the new Soundgarden album (their first in 15 years!!) Here is their first single. An appropriate title for this blog entry!
