Info Dump

Work continues to figure out the two major issues: career and sexuality (in that order this time around)

I had lunch with a dentist yesterday, to discuss that career path. It's been on my mind since June, so maybe this one will stick? There's still some aspects of it I'm not sure about (seems chronic neck/back pain is inevitable, and I never really was much into working a lot with my hands), but then again every job has its downside. I've thought about doing what some of my friends have done and get a teaching credential to teach HS biology or something, but I don't know about teaching high schoolers . . . plus the job prospects are pretty dim for teachers (though better for science and math I think). There's a good chance I may end up with dentistry, we'll see. There are aspects I find attractive (interacting and building relationships with people, helping relieve people of pain and practicing preventative treatments, etc.)

I got a new laptop and have been making use of the webcam to keep in touch with family, including my parents who now live in the Midwest :-( I can't believe I haven't seen them in person since before my trip!

About the trip: it was to Europe, the Eurotrip I had been planning for years to take place between work and grad school. Luckily it still worked out even though grad school got indefinitely postponed. It single-handedly prevented 2010 from being a really crappy year. Kind of weird how 3 of the most stressful months of my life were immediately followed by one of the best. I figured it would be a good chance to recharge my batteries and get ready to figure out this career thing once and for all. As for the places we visited (me, friends, and cousins), we went to Spain, France, Italy, Germany, The Netherlands, and the UK. Many fun times were had. And no, we did not try the brownies in Amsterdam. We did visit the Red Light District, though. I found it pretty disturbing, like a smutty haunted house, haha. Prostitutes behind glass, on either side of a narrow alleyway, beckoning to you. Definitely not something you'd find in the US, haha. My friends were captivated it seems. I was just uncomfortable.

We also inadvertently stayed in a gay hotel in Berlin, called the Axel Hotel. Hotels.com left out a bit of pertinent information about the type of hotel, haha. The place's motto was "Hetero Friendly." It also seems to confuse "gay" with "exhibitionist," . . . since the walls of the bathrooms in the rooms are transparent! If the hall door was open people could see right into the shower! There's also door hangars, in addition to the ones that say "Do Not Disturb," that say, "Please Disturb." The guest directory explains it is to notify other guests that it is okay to "knock on the door." Ahem. Apparently while me and a friend were sitting down in the lobby a couple of guys went by and checked us out (I wasn't looking up, one of the others told me). Interesting. Some of my companions are typically a bit homophobic, but I think they handled our stay maturely. Definitely makes an interesting story. Now I read they're putting one in in NYC. Of course, my big secret issue was in my head the whole time we were there. Not only that, we happened to be in Madrid and Munich during gay pride! It was like a recurring theme.

Also during the trip, a couple of my travel buddies invented code words to allow them to discreetly point out hot girls to each other (they're in college, give 'em a break, haha). I noticed more guys than girls during the trip, so I couldn't really join in.

Now that I'm back home it's back to business as usual, while I try to figure out what career to pursue. And on the side working on the sexuality issue whenever any clues arise. A girl at work who I always thought was attractive just left to go to law school (at the same school I decided not to go to, haha). Another girl who I'm pretty sure had feelings for me left for medical school. She'd be perfect to date, if only I felt more attracted to her. Recently I met a female teller in the bank who was really cute and had a great personality, and the fact that I felt an attraction got my attention. I may need to go back there soon. It did confirm my feeling that I only crush on girls once I've interacted with them, whereas I can crush on guys just based on appearance. Seems like personality is a more substantial thing to look for in a potential mate, but it's kind of problematic if the physical element is missing. So hmm.

Okay that was a massive dump of stream of consciousness. I need to be at work at 8 tomorrow, so good night.